Life doesnt always go the way you plan them to go, and it deffinatly wont go if you dont have a plan. But in reality, no one really plan things the way that its going on with them at the moment. Things just happen you know, and sometimes, well most of the times there isnt and explanation as to why things are really happening the opposite way from what you want. Maybe, all of this things are predestine into our life by God. Maybe God knows what is best for us, and plan things for us wether we like it or not. But at the end, we still have to accept God's plan for us. Because God is after all the All-Knowing One.
Have you ever been in a situation where by you sometimes wonder if your with the right guy? That that guy isnt just another one of those wrong guys? Well...i have...Sometimes it makes me feel scared of having any relationship with guys. The things that always going on around inside their mind can never be understood. The fear that you have, thinking that your not a perfect girl enough that your boyfriend might just cheat you and sleep with another girl...then you start to imagine what he might possibly be doing with that other girl when he says his out and your all alone at home, he doesnt call you nor send you messages... What kind of horror this is for all the girls...on the movies you see husbands cheating their wife behind their back, always saying that they have to go out station but then they ends up at the front door of a sexier and younger looking women...And seeing that you started to imagine your life, you start asking yourself would your life be like that or will you be able to find someone even better, who loves you and you alone. And when you listen to love songs...arr...all those beautiful loves songs, it just makes you think about him and nothing but him, and you begin to feel a kind of sansation, burning in your heart, ohh...how much that makes you want him to be in your arms, but you realize that his just not there, and you begin to cry....how foolish of you, you have fallen soo deeply in love with him that later when you found out that his cheating on you, you would rather just forgive him and let him return to your life than to move on...and oh...how blind and lost you are, for not thinking that it would happen again...
Sometimes i wonder...what does God really want from me....is it to learn, have experients about the true world? learn to be strong and independent? that i dont really need a guy in my life to be strong? What??
Full of questions, questions that does not have answers...
Have you ever been in a situation where by you sometimes wonder if your with the right guy? That that guy isnt just another one of those wrong guys? Well...i have...Sometimes it makes me feel scared of having any relationship with guys. The things that always going on around inside their mind can never be understood. The fear that you have, thinking that your not a perfect girl enough that your boyfriend might just cheat you and sleep with another girl...then you start to imagine what he might possibly be doing with that other girl when he says his out and your all alone at home, he doesnt call you nor send you messages... What kind of horror this is for all the girls...on the movies you see husbands cheating their wife behind their back, always saying that they have to go out station but then they ends up at the front door of a sexier and younger looking women...And seeing that you started to imagine your life, you start asking yourself would your life be like that or will you be able to find someone even better, who loves you and you alone. And when you listen to love songs...arr...all those beautiful loves songs, it just makes you think about him and nothing but him, and you begin to feel a kind of sansation, burning in your heart, ohh...how much that makes you want him to be in your arms, but you realize that his just not there, and you begin to cry....how foolish of you, you have fallen soo deeply in love with him that later when you found out that his cheating on you, you would rather just forgive him and let him return to your life than to move on...and oh...how blind and lost you are, for not thinking that it would happen again...
Sometimes i wonder...what does God really want from me....is it to learn, have experients about the true world? learn to be strong and independent? that i dont really need a guy in my life to be strong? What??
Full of questions, questions that does not have answers...
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