Never Notice Until You Back

Sometimes I wonder what is in the future ahead for me... What is in stored for me, and what would my life be like. All kinds of imagination about my future lingers in my head and how and what I have to do to reach to my dream. Even know, I still wonder if the things I did was the right one to even do it.

Now after 6 years that have passed by, I started cleaning up my room, only to find more things that triggers memories. Memories that I least want to remember. Most consist of people that I envy, people that had betray me people that dont really have anything good thing to do with my life. But somewhere buried deep beneath all of this bad memories, lies some of the good ones. Ones that I got close to such as my cousins, even though there were good times and bad times. Some whom are my friends that I could count on.

But the thing is, we see the importance of looking forward so much that we forgot to take the time to look at what we have gone through in our life to reach to where we are now. When I was cleaning my room, I realize that 6 years have passed since the time I taken a picture with my 3 other cousins together. Yet I remembered it as if it was only yesterday...

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My new beginings

Saturday, 17th of December, was my happiest and saddest day of this year. Maybe it was the happiest and saddest day of my life to be feeling both ways for two different reason. Firstly, it was my graduation. Being graduated from the 4 years of my life in Limkokwing. Though some may say that the departure of graduates are always the saddest, but truthfully, it was my happiest day that I finally being able to get out of there. I sincerely would miss some of the lecturers there, some of whom are the greatest amongst all others, yet some of whom were not the lecturer of my subjects. But they were kind to me all the same. It was also the saddest day of this year, because during the entire event of the graduation, it was also the last time or the last day of my relationship with one great companion, who is a good person that does not see himself in the light. The thought of our agreement to end our little relationship at the last day of our being in university, resides in my head up till the very day of the graduation. I could do nothing but to only produce a smile on my face. Most of my friends know not of this agreement of ours. What a shock. But sometimes, actually most of the time, we need to face reality.

Even though I may say that it was the saddest day of all. But up till now, up till this very day, I havent shade a tear over the end of this companionship. Because, I know I still have him, as a close and dear friend, even if no longer my companion. But he is a very valuable friend. One that I trust above all others.

This is ScartyScarf, signing off.

Life N Death

Sometimes I have the feeling that we are God's food. God made us from flour, bake us till we either becomes a pretty, lovely cake, or un ugly cake. But either way, God will eat what God made. Which comes to the saying that God will take away whatever that is given to us, especially your lives.

Having a phone...

The thing about living in this new era is that all of the new generations are highly equip with technology. Now one can be seen without at least having a cellphone in their pocket. But that is the thing about cellphones, you can call people at a distance, and people can call you just to irritate you. But I dont know why, for me when I call someone on their cell and they dont pick up, I always came to imagine them laying somewhere on the road, dead!... Especially when its someone I care for...

Truth about God

Sometimes I wonder... Who is God? If God created to universe, then what created God? What is God made of and how do we know what is real and what is not? Maybe the things that we think that aren't real, would be the real things after all, and all those that we believe them to be real are just illusions? What if the Greek gods were real, or the Titans, or the Norse Gods? What is all of them were real and Ragnarok did really happen...maybe on earth? If not, then why would the archeologist came to the findings of giant skeletals all over the world? And where are they now??

What if, just what if...a question...that all religions was made up in order for us to just be farmers, doing our things, minding our own business with our eyes blind folded by religion? What if God, as we see now, is actually Aliens that once visited the ancient Mayans and the Egyptians??

But the biggest question of all. If knowledge in the early BC was not up to our knowledge of existence and technology, then how on earth did they build enormous maze like architecture? Surely there are some remaining piece of knowledge left uncovered...

Well, this is just my screwed up everyday thoughts.
The question of "what if".
Since in reality, war happens because of the differences in race, religions and country. Yet, we are all the same...Human, who so blindly do things without even to ask "what if". So blindly following the norms.

This is ScartyScarf signing off!

Personal Away From Business

I have a problem with one of the person that I am force to work with. This person has done be wrong before. Which was a good thing, cause at least now I get to know who I can trust and who that I cant trust. But most of all, is that I am more aware and careful of who I said things to. Especially about things I dont want other people to know.

Some of my friends either make fun of me because she was a close friend to me and she was someone that I am always with. No I am not a lesbian. Even during those times I have a boyfriend of my own. To which was not the kind of boyfriend that I would be with in the long run. And some of my friends ask me, how I can manage to work with someone who I have problem with. My answer would always be that I have problem with her, but that is personal problems. But business is strictly business and that personal issues should not go into business. But sometimes I have to admit, if there is a personal issue, there would be a bigger issue to work with someone you have personal issues with because it gives a reason to go against each other.

But what the hell. I am only 21 years old, still young and its not wrong to experience everything in life and actually know things and be mature in life with no regret.

This is ScarletScarf signing off! Good night dear online readers.