What's Love?

Love... ever so soft, so tender, kindness and full of wonders and miracles. It is freely given, yet often, it is taken for granted. The love that we give to others, the kindness from our heart that represents so much more than words could ever explain. Though kindness and love is great, they are often being treated back with wickedness. Black and darkness from the bottomless pit of any human soul could bare. 

Poverty in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia

Poverty... What is poverty? Just another word in the dictionary with more useless words that meant nothing more to another human being whom set high up in the status quo. What is poverty? For someone who wakes up every morning, left the house with perfume tracing their steps, with a desk at the office, car at the basement and a family to go home to at the end of the day. It is no different from a man waking up every morning, walking to a clear spot on the street with footsteps to trace his every whereabouts, personal belongings beside him where ever he goes, and every where is his place for a home in the cold night.

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"Unsound"

"Unsound"
Memory hits the brain as hard as the knife could stab the heart.
The sound of beating against the wall was nothing but a neighboring scream that was only yesterday.
The night is silent, filled with loud sorrow of yester-year.

The Going Gets Tough

It has been long since the last time I post an entry into my diary. Lately, there were lots of things up in my head. Some of which took hold the better judgement of me. Some, by far the most disappointing memoirs to be made for future lessons.

I admit that I have been away, from my fellow readers. From my college friends and close families. It seems that I have lost the touch of being able to communicate with people other than myself. Unsocialize, some would call me. But I do not deny... I have lost the sense of socializing. To my friends and families out there, I truly ask for your forgiveness and also your understanding.

Never Notice Until You Back

Sometimes I wonder what is in the future ahead for me... What is in stored for me, and what would my life be like. All kinds of imagination about my future lingers in my head and how and what I have to do to reach to my dream. Even know, I still wonder if the things I did was the right one to even do it.

Now after 6 years that have passed by, I started cleaning up my room, only to find more things that triggers memories. Memories that I least want to remember. Most consist of people that I envy, people that had betray me people that dont really have anything good thing to do with my life. But somewhere buried deep beneath all of this bad memories, lies some of the good ones. Ones that I got close to such as my cousins, even though there were good times and bad times. Some whom are my friends that I could count on.

But the thing is, we see the importance of looking forward so much that we forgot to take the time to look at what we have gone through in our life to reach to where we are now. When I was cleaning my room, I realize that 6 years have passed since the time I taken a picture with my 3 other cousins together. Yet I remembered it as if it was only yesterday...

ScartyScarf signing off!

Extraordinary Life

Life is not something that someone can say it to be ordinary. To me, Life is something extraordinary, because you never really get to know when will your time be up, how and where. I guess that is why many people like to say this one quotation:

Live life to the fullest

Busy Week

Hi guys, its been a long busy week that I couldn't even have a peak at my own favorite blogs. Anyway, I have been busy walking around KL, taking pictures, taking more footages of what is happening around us. I have a car of my own. But I more prefer to drive my car to somewhere, and walk 50 meters around it, taking pictures and videos as I go. Not only it is a good way to loose all the fats, but sometimes you just cant get anything from sitting in the car...

So back on the matter of my final year project, looks like it that I cant make it, because I don't have any actress that would play the part of the girlfriend. Now my plan has changed... I'm doing a documentary instead, about life...and death... Actually...now Im on the way of editing it... But tears keep falling down as I edit...just too sad...

Anyway, got to go do my work... Take care, and Happy Halloween.

This is ScartyScarf signing off...

P.S... If I am lucky enough, I might just bring you some pictures of Halloween in Malaysia (KL).

Life N Death

Sometimes I have the feeling that we are God's food. God made us from flour, bake us till we either becomes a pretty, lovely cake, or un ugly cake. But either way, God will eat what God made. Which comes to the saying that God will take away whatever that is given to us, especially your lives.

Having a phone...

The thing about living in this new era is that all of the new generations are highly equip with technology. Now one can be seen without at least having a cellphone in their pocket. But that is the thing about cellphones, you can call people at a distance, and people can call you just to irritate you. But I dont know why, for me when I call someone on their cell and they dont pick up, I always came to imagine them laying somewhere on the road, dead!... Especially when its someone I care for...

Weird Boring Week

This week, totally sucks. Nothing much to do but work work work... Work I do that I dont even get paid for... yet Im doing all the paying for my work. Now, Im broke... not totally broke yet, but breaking... What should I do? Find a part time job? Currently that is what I have in mind. But what about my assignments?? Not to mention, I havent had fun in months! When was the last time I even went for a show?

I still have about a month or so to get everything finish. A month is a whole lot of time in hell but not enough time in heaven. Time is running out. But what should I do after graduation?? Thats a mystery...

Anyway, got to go find something to eat...

ScartyScarf signing off!

Getting Things Done For School...

I remember when I was back in primary school and even in secondary school, I would come home, eat, on the television and put all of my piles of homework on the table right in front of the television. I would sit there for hours and hours till my mom comes back and I would still be sitting there trying to get my homework done.

Now, I am in university in Selangor. And not to my or any of your surprise, I am still doing my work in front of the television, but guess what, the television remains off all the time! People say that its a habit. But I dont think that its a habit when you start with the television on and now your doing it again with the television off. Its not about habit of sitting in front of the television and doing assignments. It is about the comfortability that takes our mind away.

 It is now my last semester in this place. I cant wait to actually graduate and head out for work. But I will definitely miss some of my wonderful lecturer and friends. I am sure they will fill the same

Life Full of Zombies...

Just as you may think that zombies only comes out from their grave, some will just come out from your everyday life people. Only now I notice that my life is so full of zombies. Either they act like one, walking around with those heavy sag of eyes, walking sulkily like hunchback, or they just dont responds to what ever that you are trying to tell them... The only thing that comes to my mind in the term of zombies, is games... yea, I like playing zombie games... but I think I might just be a zombie myself...

Oh well... Nothing else to say, take care and have a great weekend.
ScartyScarf signing off!

Personal Away From Business

I have a problem with one of the person that I am force to work with. This person has done be wrong before. Which was a good thing, cause at least now I get to know who I can trust and who that I cant trust. But most of all, is that I am more aware and careful of who I said things to. Especially about things I dont want other people to know.

Some of my friends either make fun of me because she was a close friend to me and she was someone that I am always with. No I am not a lesbian. Even during those times I have a boyfriend of my own. To which was not the kind of boyfriend that I would be with in the long run. And some of my friends ask me, how I can manage to work with someone who I have problem with. My answer would always be that I have problem with her, but that is personal problems. But business is strictly business and that personal issues should not go into business. But sometimes I have to admit, if there is a personal issue, there would be a bigger issue to work with someone you have personal issues with because it gives a reason to go against each other.

But what the hell. I am only 21 years old, still young and its not wrong to experience everything in life and actually know things and be mature in life with no regret.

This is ScarletScarf signing off! Good night dear online readers.

The Voice...

Lately, I have been hearing voices... Its always that same girl's voice. First I heard it when I was sleeping. It just say one word...

Bill...

Then again yesterday when I was sleeping. As usual, I sometimes slept with my laptop on, but thats when I was too tired and too sleepy that I just fell on my bed. But yesterday, while I was asleep, I suddenly woke up for no recent, and just as I was about to went back to sleep, I hear that same girl's voice. Only this time it says...

Just off it...

And I got up and off it...

Wish-list For All

Have you ever walk into a shop, set you eyes upon a beauty that have attracted your eyes, you walk to it, pick it up, and there, that moment when you glance at the price of the beauty, it just stab a knife in your heart. Bu just went you were about to leave, the salesperson approach you, temp you to give it a try to see if you would like it or not. You would then think, trying is for free, it wont hurt, so why not. And there you go, you put your body into that beauty, it feels perfect. You feel whole and a new person with that beauty. You see yourself like you have never see yourself before. But then, you think back of the cost of that beauty. You just had to rip it off your body and return it to were it came from. But that beauty keep calling to you, asking you to take it home, but you know you cant, cause you do not have what it takes to bring it home... The money.

Well... That happens to me quite a lot. I have lived it up. But most definitely I will get the things I want when I start working. You see, currently I am a university student, about to graduate by the end of this year. Hopefully I could be able to find a job and earn some living for my self and my family. But as for now, I could just sketch that beauty on the piece of paper and paste it on the wall in front of me, putting it as one of my wish list items that I know will be in my possession.

This happend yesterday when I was in one of the Espirit outlet. A high-hilled shoe that cast around RM500/ RM499.99.

Thats all for now, ScartyScarf signing off to get some work done!

Once again... Sick

Almost everyone on earth does not want to get sick. They do not want to suffer the pain and going to doctors and eating medicine. 

The thing is, i believe that getting sick once in a well is good, cause the body gets a chance to upgrade the immune system and fight the latest illness. It gives a change to the immune system to win. Sometimes I think that it is good to have someone to take care of you when your sick. For me it makes me feel that I am not alone, that there is someone who is helping me fighting to get better soon.

Now that I am living in Kuala Lumpur, things are getting worse here. There is the traffics and also the haze that blinds people from seeing. Haze that is always there during the day, but when the sky turns night, its a clear night sky with a more fresher air. Some how I feel like one day, we will all be the night people, who sleeps during the day and works during the night.

What has happen to the mother earth that we have to face this situation where the atmosphere is fully covered with hazed. It was not like this two weeks ago.

A hotel kindda home

Sometimes I get the feeling that I am staying in a hotel. Although I am just in an ordinary house of my parents, and no where does it have to look of a hotel. But relatives that is not my immediate family keep coming in and going out. What makes it more worst is that they have their own keys to the house. Which now makes me feel like I am staying in their house and not mine. Cause I dont even have my own keys... Wait... I think I do... just need to find it. But thats not the point. The point is... I am suppose to be alone in the house, yet there are extras here... anyone needs an extras for their movies?

The old new comer

Hi there to all those who knows me and dont. Firstly, I want to wish you all a very Happy Raya in this lovely year 2011 and Happy Merdeka to those of Malaysian.

Though this is a new blog that I have opened today, but this is not my first blog. In fact I have many other blogs, to which all of them have a different properties, a different purpose of me opening them.

The past forgotten

Though times have past, people have come and left. Time have never wanted to spot, not for me, not for them, mostly never for anyone.
People always say, that when there is something happy, something that is worth remembering. But why do i always forgot about my past? Was it because it was all just a little small event? Or was there something in it that i do not want to remember?
People also said "forgive and forget". Sometimes when i want to forgive another person, it suddenly seems like it became so useless to forgive them. It is as though they make it too easy for me to hate them.

It is never too late

I am 20 years old now, going to be 21 after 4 months. It seems that I have always celebrate, or more like having my birthday be celebrated by others during the day. Bur strangely enough, it was never during the night. Normally as I know, who doesn't celebrate their birthdays at night? Only me I guess...