Habibi

My love one, why do you always smoke? What is so nice to smoke? Even if I ask you to smoke one every two hours you would still not do it. Why? Now, I have given up of asking you to try to smoke less, but you dont really care what i say do you. If only you know how i feel about you smoking...
Now, i dont care anymore. You want to continue smoking, then go ahead. I wont stop you. Since you dont know how hurtful it is to my chest when you smoke...Its ok, i dont really have to tell you why i cry, or feel sad anyway...You had even say to me that you would stop smoking this sem, and you forget it. I wonder if one day you would even forget me...

Friends for Life

Friends? What are they? Who are they? Why do they seem so important to us in our life? Well, if you dont know the meaning of FRIENDS, then take some time off and get a stroll out in the sreet. No matter which turn you take, you would be looking at people who are talking happily with their companions. You might even find that there are girls group that will hold each other's hand while walking and talking. You may even see many people being with the same people that they have been more than a dozen times. Now, could you see the closeness of that relationship? Relationship doesnt mean that it is only for couples and all. It means of the bondness one have with another, no matter if it is only friends, family, or loved ones, its just all around us.

Friends are those who are always there to help you. They are always by your side, waiting to lend a hand when ever possible. Sometimes, you could even share almost anything with them, such as a drak secreat that you rather hide from your parents. I myself have many friends that i consider to have a good relationship with. Having such kind good friends after only finishing half of the first sem, i feel that im soo blessed. In my whole life never had i feel that there are someone i could share my stories with.

Not like a cinderella story

18 years in my life, never have I thought that i would find love again. Every where that i go, I see many Cinderella with there Prince Charming, ether they are holding each other hands or hugging each other in their arms tightly as though they would never let go of their love ones. To them, letting go is like ending the story of Cinderella a little too early. I never really understand why is it like that for them? Does every lovely couple feels the same? i never know till now. After losing my first love, a love that i had never had any moments to feel, i thought that I, a normal and simple girl would ever find love again. Now as I am in the world of the University life, I finally met someone who cares and wants me to be with him forever, even after death. How happy everytime i feel when i am with him. And after only a month, i finally understood how it would feel like to be scare of losing the one that you love most, the one that meant everything in your life, the one that would make you happy. Right now, all that i care is my time that i spent with him. Everytime, i cant help that the time for him to be far far away from me keeps getting nearer and nearer. Oh how i wish that we could be together forever not including the time in heaven. What a very happy ending it would be...

Wrong or Right Love?

This is the first time I'm using this Blogger. So, nice to meet you all out there.
I'm going to tell a little small part of my story. So here goes nothing.

Recently, I attended a University in Malaysia. I thought life there as a student would be just as the same as being at other places, boring and busy. And i didn't think of anything much. But upon meeting one of the lecturer at that university who does not teach me, I slowly became blinded to the world around me. All I could see is that lecturer. To make it easier for me, I'll just call him AS. He have this very sweet and yet very warm smell on him. Each time he passes me, i would take a long deep breath. And his voice, his voice is like those acter's voice, very stong and manly kindda rough. And his face, its something that i just could not forget. Everytime i close my eyes to go to sleep, i keep on seeing him...

There are a few times that we went back together and he would sit next to me. We had many things to talk about in our conversation, but the only thing i ever wanted to tell him is that i love him. My heart started to ache everytime when he goes away from me. I wish to be with him, if can forever. I thought that there is no need to tell him how i feel right away, but now that i know he would not be teaching in this university, i dont know what to do anymore. i want him to stay, but his career is also his life, and i dont want to sound like i care only bout my self. Sometimes i do wish i could just tell him, but i dont know how. sometimes i worried about what he will think after i tell him.