My Future, My Destiny

Things are really getting weirder for me... Relationship... Am I really not good with people or is it just that i was hoping for too much?

Aidin's dream now a days has becoming more of a motivation for me. Besides them being look like some sort of messages from my other sisters, making him look like a mere medium,

The Going Gets Tough

It has been long since the last time I post an entry into my diary. Lately, there were lots of things up in my head. Some of which took hold the better judgement of me. Some, by far the most disappointing memoirs to be made for future lessons.

I admit that I have been away, from my fellow readers. From my college friends and close families. It seems that I have lost the touch of being able to communicate with people other than myself. Unsocialize, some would call me. But I do not deny... I have lost the sense of socializing. To my friends and families out there, I truly ask for your forgiveness and also your understanding.

It Is Never Too Late

I am 20 years old now, going to be 21 after 4 months. It seems that I have always celebrate, or more like having my birthday be celebrated by others during the day. But strangely enough, it was never during the night. Normally as I know, who doesn't celebrate their birthdays at night? Only me I guess... But what can I do? Yet there are others amongst my friends who would send some shock wave to my brain by only asking of what I want to do during my birthday. Honestly, I have never thought of that, seeing as I have never got the chance to do the things that I want to do. But thinking back now, maybe for my 21st birthday, I should treat myself to the dance floor? Clubing anyone? On second thought, I have been to one... and it was my first time there too, drinking Balihigh was the most wonderful beer that I have ever tasted in my whole youth life. Or maybe I should go watch a movie? But I normally watch movies even though its not my birthday... So what should I do for this year.... I have absolutely no idea at all. But if you have one, do let me know.

Darken Earth

In the darkness of the ebbyst,

Silence spreads across the lands, 

Leaving nothing in sight but only the nipple of the mountain top.

An endless stillness of the earth's magnitude. 

The burning of the core meant nothing but a glimpse of a slight hope.

Nothing more.

Never Notice Until You Back

Sometimes I wonder what is in the future ahead for me... What is in stored for me, and what would my life be like. All kinds of imagination about my future lingers in my head and how and what I have to do to reach to my dream. Even know, I still wonder if the things I did was the right one to even do it.

Now after 6 years that have passed by, I started cleaning up my room, only to find more things that triggers memories. Memories that I least want to remember. Most consist of people that I envy, people that had betray me people that dont really have anything good thing to do with my life. But somewhere buried deep beneath all of this bad memories, lies some of the good ones. Ones that I got close to such as my cousins, even though there were good times and bad times. Some whom are my friends that I could count on.

But the thing is, we see the importance of looking forward so much that we forgot to take the time to look at what we have gone through in our life to reach to where we are now. When I was cleaning my room, I realize that 6 years have passed since the time I taken a picture with my 3 other cousins together. Yet I remembered it as if it was only yesterday...

ScartyScarf signing off!