Just Speak Up!!

Im tired of people with their attitute towards me. I mean, what did I do wrong to them? Have i ever tell their secrets to other people? Have i said anything to other people that is not true so that they think bad about them? No! I did not do all those damn childish things. Yet this people, this so called friends of mind, who already expose my secrets to other people, keep giving me those stares like as if i stole their money or something... Not once did i do anything to them. I didnt even steal their friends from them, yet they keep taking the only people i have to their side. If you have something to say, why dont you just freaking come to me and say it in my darn face, if you dare...oh how i dared you to do that. Dont just look at me like that, like a wusspuss staring at me with those idiotic childish eyes and expect me to talk to you. You are no one to me, i care less to what happen to you since you yourself dont even bother to listen advice from people around you! SO BE GONE you EVIL SPIRITS!!

Animals seems to be more better compare to us human!

In class this morning, our lecturer screen us this one documentary called the "March of the penguins" Mostly its about the beautiful side of life. This penguins, though they are not able to think the way we could, but they understand the meaning of life, the importance of life. They prefer to stave for more than 2 months while they wait for their mate to feist, they take care of their little egg who depends solely that their parents dont give up. Rather than them giving up taking care of the unhatch egg and hunt for food... This documentary really open my eyes today, that these wild animals, without training nor teaching could have more human values than us humans...
Why cant we just be like them?

I Did It!

     This time, everything well be different for me. My friends will be someone that i can trust, that are mature enough for me to exchange experiance and knowledge. Someone that sees me and not pretend that i am an invisible being. 

     I use to think that i can never be cold to another being, or hurt them when they have never do me wrong, or hurt me. But for once, i did it! To be able to achieve something, i have to let something else go, and that was what i had done. I finally officially broke of that girl/boy friend relationship. Now i am ofiacially single. Which, i dont know if i can say i am enjoying it or regreting it... but all the same, its the right thing to do.

    This year, like i said, that everything will be new or different. Now i have a bigger motive in life, a bigger dream. I wanna be creative and put my ideas, my words into something visual that the world would see and think about it. To share knowledge through media, creative media. To share perspective. But by doing that, i would first have to work in Malaysia, if can, i wanna be like Hans Isaac, taking my own work to overseas. To be well known around the world. It is not about money that i am aiming for. But the acceptence that i am who i am. A creative person.

My Love Story

To my dear bloggers out there

I find that love, is a charming thing, it is a nice thing to be able to share with some. Be it if its the love one, life partners, friends or family. Love is just beyond understanding.

I find myself easily to love someone. But to really love someone, means understanding, responsibility. Sometimes when a person love another, he or she might, could, would do unexplainable things. Sometimes could even sacrifice love by saying that he or she dont love the other in order for that person to have a happy life.

Love is there, but you dont really need to say it. Actions is everything. Actions speaks louder than words.

I have a feeling for a person, a guy i know. But i choose not to let him know, because it is the best thing, and his happy now with his kind of life. But at times, i keep remembering him when i dont want to...i just cant forget him...not to mention i have to see him in the same class with me for another 2 years....its killing...but i cant do anything but to learn to mask my emotions, my feelings.

Understanding Myself

     Sometimes i wondered what would things be like if i was never born. Just be a spirit that roams on the earth, passing through walking beings called human, without them noticing that i was there. Its not that i dont appreciate my parents bringing me onto this world, but sometimes its just a thought in my head, saying, "what if".

     Life is hard indeed. No one goes around and say "all you need to do is just eat and sleep". I know what life is. Some people say that life is when you are living on earth. That is correct, part of it, but there is more to life than any words can express.

          Everyone is afraid. Before we are born, we were afraid that we will fail in living.  When we begin to live, we start to think of how we would die. In our head we imagine what if we die like this, at this time, at this place. We start to think, that life is short and that we only have one chance in living. So, we start to do everything that we want to do. Because after we pass on, it will just be that...that we had once walk on the earth amongst the animals and mother nature.

             Sometimes i ask myself, why was i born? Did i came here to get something done? Funny thing is that when i was a kid, i really hated wars and battles, i hated seeing people fighting and argueing. At that time, i had really thought, that i came here to stop the wars. To make them see, to put some sense in people's head... but now i think again...who am i? who will ever listen to a little girl like me, who loves animals, who love the smell of the clean fresh air coming from the forest. A little girl who loves to play under the rain that was once pure rain before the air become polluted with toxin.

              Every day, there are wars. People against people, animal against their same species or for food, doctors fight to save lifes, soldiers fight to save their country, people fight for what they believe in. There really isnt any stopping...in wars... and this is life, you like it or not, you are here, given a chance to do what is right, what is best for you and the people you love.