Do We Fight? Or Do We Quit?

     Life, isn't all that easy as you think it would be. Life doesn't give you just one option to choose from, it doesn't give you only one problem to face. Life doesn't give you just one answer for every questions you have.

     Life doesn't give you one particular weather to face. We have four, summer authum, winter, and spring and it comes around, goes around. And when each weather changes from one to the other, life doesn't just stop there, it just keeps moving on, even if you have to stop.

"To Love And Be Loved In Return"

  "To love and be loved in return", isn't this what all of us believed in till now? The hope of finding someone to love in and hopefully they love you back the same way.

     Love, is not as easy as one would imagine it to be. A young girl's imagination is to find a guy that would love her back and take care of her. With that guy being a Prince Charming none the less, married, have children, grow old and live happily ever after.

How Much Do You Trust The Other?

We all have an issue on trust, we may say that we trust the other, but how much?

There are times that we say we trust someone with our life, but a voice in us ask us in a whisper, “Just how much do you trust them?”

     At times we may say that we trust someone soo much, but it is a lie and we know it. But why do we lie? Do we really want to show that we have someone to trust in and that we are not alone in this complicated and confussing world? Just what could we be able to get out from telling others that we have some trustworthy people beside us?

Is Runing Our Only Choise?

   Everyone runs, don't you agree with me? People always run to where ever they could. They run when they see a problem coming towards them. They run when someone confess their love to them, they run when they are being hurt by people that they had trusted their life upon. 

I Am Sorry Guys...

I am truly deeply from the bottom of my heart sorry if i did or say anything to displease you, or to make you angry at me. I dont meant to hurt your feelings. Now there is only two weeks left before holiday. Christmas is coming, my due date is soon. So, please...whatever i did...please forgive me.


There are few things that i want to say right....yea....first of all...1 love...thanks to UG bro...

Just Returned from Bali, Indonesia

     A week in Bali was never enough. Although it was just a week, I really had enjoyed my time there with my beloved friends and lecturers. Knowing that Bali is a place that you could shop, I perposely brought little money with me. (RM 150) to be EXECT. And it last me for really a week there, yet i still could buy two pack of bath salt, a soap, 3 bookmarks, and a big cloth, and of course some snakcs and drinks for my lesuire. 

Voices of Unity

Finally there is something that I could that control of my assignments... which is the one, the only, PSA ( by the way it stands for Public Service Announcement ). An assignment given by my Writing of Masses lecturer Ms. Afifah.
I usually could very much hate all of my assignments, the only assignment that i came to like was the one I had from my foundation year, which I got to do a radio drama with my friends. It was soo cool and I am hoping to get another chance to do it again. But this time, my assignment for this PSA is about Unity. Oh beautiful unity, pretty as it sounds, the idea of having this PSA about unity was...uncoming... However, we did manage to record around 10 different voices of people, mostly my classmates and doing it like a montage.
While doing this PSA, I notice how the term 'unity' could have so many different meanings. Weither it is for a person, for a family, friends, or a nation, or even the whole wide world, unity is just unity. It has so many meanings but in the end it all comes down to one, that is to live happily and peaceful together on one world, under one sky, in one world.

I dont understand ladies at all!!

I really dont understand how it is that ladies could be ladies. I admit that I am a tomboy. Those things like high heels and make ups and dresses are really not my thing.
Sometimes when I'm at the shopping mall with my friends or family, I notice other working ladies at the shoe shop testing every nice heels that had cought their attention. Its weird how they could only just choose a heel that could only match one of their outfits and not many. They had to buy many heels to match all of their outfit that hangs in their room. And I am sure that each time they went shopping, the first thing that they would aim for are bags and heels. I know that it is fashion that some may say, but what is it fashion when they only just buy and use it once or twice and being lock up in the shoe cabinet for douzen years. And after buying new shoes, you really you had bought this other show years ago but has only whore it one or twice... Isnt it a waste??
Isnt curiall to safe some money and spend money on the things that you really need? Or safe money for the future where God only knows what might happen. The way how I identify rich people is not of their big house or their big cars or what kind of cloths they are wearing, but through how easily they could spend their money without thinking if they really need it or not. They just spend it like hell and later complain that they are broke... Because what make it different from rich people are people who knows how to spend money wisely, that money dont just come into your account bank whenever you want it or how ever much you want it. Things might happen in the future, you might be amit to hospital and have a huge sum of fees to pay, or your house got burn, where would you stay? Depent on your parents and siblings? Or your parents or siblings got sick and couldnt affort to pay the full amount of the fees, are you just going to sit at the side and watch your family suffer? I know the answers in your heart to those questions, but do you admit to your answers or would you just ignore them and go on buying things that are not important??

What is wrong with the guys other there today??

Today, i must admit....walking really is tiring. I'm a person who likes to walk. Everyday you could see me do is just walk walk and more walk. Today i attended this fashion show event by my university at Bangsa shopping centre. After a 2 hours stand, the event ended at 6.30. No doubt it was tired, but my friends and i still had the stamina in us to go shopping at Mid Valley. Really....its very hard for my because of my condition...each foot i put infront of the other, it really hurts like hell that makes me feel like either want to pee or want to cry...the pain is not the feet though...its kindda private...anyway...moving on... as we were on the escalator going down to the parking, this two guys (judging by the look and the way they speak, i suppose their Iranians) were going the opposite direction going upwards. As we pass each other, he look at me and begain to say "excuss me..." but since our escalators were moving, he couldnt continue what he wanted to say. In the end he had to follow us all the way down to our parking. Finally before i could escape out of the door, he shouted out "Excussed me...wait" he apologize to my girl friend who was currently with me at the moment and started to talk to me " Sorry, i just need a few moment with you...well im married, you see me younger brother here, im looking for a nice, pretty..." before he could finish his sentence, i grab hold of my guy friend who passed by my side who intended to leave me behind. since i already know what he wanted from me, the only best way to say no was to make him think that i am already taken. And things goes well... my guy friend indeed came in the right time....but its really weird...how can guys be soo....i donno...thinking that by just making such request, the girl would say yes?? really!! what happen to friendship, then relationship...get to know more about each other???

The sense of sight and understanding emerge

I guess its time that I accept reality. Everytime i see a movie, listen to song or reading my book, i tend to think that life would go the way they are in movies and all the entertainments in this world. I never, not even once, think that all those things are just fantasy, that it is all made up by someone. Even the movies, it was all organize and the producer knows what is happening and what will happen, because they are the ones that decide what is to happen to their characters. But i realize...that...life isnt like that at all. Life is a journey, a journey which one does not know where it will end. But the traveler sets goal in their journey and hope that they will end up where ever that is they want to be. But life's journey would never end until one dies. It countinues on and on, even when you had reach your life's goal, it will still continue on, it may take you to success or it might led you to a downfall. The conclussion is all based on the choice of route during the journey.
I guess this is all a wake up call for me, to accept things as the way it is. Bad things may come, but there is also those good sweet things that will later come. So one should not be discourage just because bad things keep coming to life. This that happened in life cant be rewind, time would not go backwards just to give you another chance. The only time when chance appear may not be easily spotted. So... always think twice, trice, to confirm that the choice your making is what you really want.
And starting from this point onwards, im only going to be making decisions for myself what i think is best for me. Im going to make my life more happier and merrier like never before. Coz there is only one journey of life, and yet fill with many kinds of memory. Life with only one journey should be full of nothing but sweet and lovely memories and makes the soul fly high into the sky.

I wish you guys will oneday realize, that life is just too short. Enjoy your life mates, stop complaining ^_^.

P.S: I love all of you out there

Happy Ever After...

Life doesnt always go the way you plan them to go, and it deffinatly wont go if you dont have a plan. But in reality, no one really plan things the way that its going on with them at the moment. Things just happen you know, and sometimes, well most of the times there isnt and explanation as to why things are really happening the opposite way from what you want. Maybe, all of this things are predestine into our life by God. Maybe God knows what is best for us, and plan things for us wether we like it or not. But at the end, we still have to accept God's plan for us. Because God is after all the All-Knowing One.
Have you ever been in a situation where by you sometimes wonder if your with the right guy? That that guy isnt just another one of those wrong guys? Well...i have...Sometimes it makes me feel scared of having any relationship with guys. The things that always going on around inside their mind can never be understood. The fear that you have, thinking that your not a perfect girl enough that your boyfriend might just cheat you and sleep with another girl...then you start to imagine what he might possibly be doing with that other girl when he says his out and your all alone at home, he doesnt call you nor send you messages... What kind of horror this is for all the girls...on the movies you see husbands cheating their wife behind their back, always saying that they have to go out station but then they ends up at the front door of a sexier and younger looking women...And seeing that you started to imagine your life, you start asking yourself would your life be like that or will you be able to find someone even better, who loves you and you alone. And when you listen to love songs...arr...all those beautiful loves songs, it just makes you think about him and nothing but him, and you begin to feel a kind of sansation, burning in your heart, ohh...how much that makes you want him to be in your arms, but you realize that his just not there, and you begin to cry....how foolish of you, you have fallen soo deeply in love with him that later when you found out that his cheating on you, you would rather just forgive him and let him return to your life than to move on...and oh...how blind and lost you are, for not thinking that it would happen again...
Sometimes i wonder...what does God really want from me....is it to learn, have experients about the true world? learn to be strong and independent? that i dont really need a guy in my life to be strong? What??
Full of questions, questions that does not have answers...

Lost

Thanks my dearest friends for keeping on reminding me that guys always talk sweet to girls just to have what they want. Sometimes I feel as though I dont know anything. I keep asking myself if he really loves me or is he just trying to get what his aiming for. Sometimes i doubt that he has anything for me yet at the same times thinks that he really do loves me. So, I guess you could say that i was in a lost and confussing state of mind and i didnt know what to think at that time. But what's the point, things change, we separate... But here's the thing, he says he misses me, yet he doesnt call me nor sms me, and yet i'm the one who have always been calling him... Did he ever have anything for me?? Atleast anything that is true??

Taking the step ahead of me...

This time, even though I know that this was the only relationship that last short but quite intimate, I decided to move forward. Although I have been advicing most of my friends to just move on from a broken relationship, I know that it is not easy, I understand what they feel and going through at that time. And this time, I had to do the same, to move onwards when I know there is nothing there for me to say "Hey wait, just give me a few moments," there is no point of me doing that when i know nothing is going to change. He will never be mine...and i guess that is just the way it ment to be, that we are not ment for each other. So whats more to do then to just let it go and keep walking forwards? But leaving him behind and going back to my mother's home was quite tough. He was the one who wanted to send me to the bus station to see me off, and the whole time when i was with him that day i really wanted to cry, but i didnt. Deep down I keep on reminding myself that i had made a promise to him to be stronger. It wouldnt be fitting if i would have cry infront of him...

Lonely again...

Somehow, even though knowing that my friends and family are always there for me, beside me and whatever people always say to me when i cry...i feel lonely...though i am always available for those who needs me and always there for them when they need someone to talk to....somehow i just feel...the only thing that i am miss is...me... how i wish to have a clone...a clone of me... to have someone to talk to, to motivate me to the right path... it seems that im not getting motivate much often... how i wish that you could understand what is like to feel lost, and hoping that the dearest person to your life would motivate you and bring some light into your life...

All this time

Do you ever once in your life time imagine and hope that you are the hero of the world? To be brave and fight for the things that you hold dear to your life? To be a hero like all those games design to be in such a way like Final Fantasy, Ragnarok online, Kingdom Heart and such?

But believe this, even heroes needs to be motivate to do something that they want to do, but scare of facing the darkness. In our life, no matter how much it seems that we are facing things alone, we arent really alone. People always says that God is beside you so you dont have to fear anything. It is true that God is always there, but what is the point of putting all your faith onto God's hand when you dont even have a little tiny bit of faith in yourself?

Relationship is not something you just meet and have it immediately. Relationship takes time to grow and some understanding. Breaking up a relationship with your spouse doesnt mean that your should not still love them or care of them. More over it does not mean you cant see them and still be friends, or much more better, the best friend of your life. Relationship isnt something to be taken for granted, instead it should be cherish, well cared for.

Take your time, and think...Are you really taking care of your relationship well enough? Are you spending enough equal time with everyone? Are you not ignoring a certain someone that might need you to be by their side when they were at yours when you needed someone?

Think about it, what have you been doing all this time??

Kingdom heart

New Members of the Family

For the first time in my life, I decided that I do not want to be alone in this life anymore. I just boughted two dawrf hamster, a male named Rex and a female named Lola. Although i know that relationship with people of the society is very important in once life, but they, the 'People' are the most scariest living beings ever imaginable. They could just smile at your face and pretend to be nice and friendly with you, then as time passes by, they became a monster with hidden agendas. But what makes them more scarier is that you could never know, whether they mend you no harm, or they are just waiting at one corner for the right time to strike you down with a shining needle stright at your heart.

But somehow that is the way life is going around for all of us. No matter where you go, who you hang out with, we always have decision at a specific time to chose what is it that you want for yourself in your own life. Couse no one is going to chose for you. No one is soo caring enough to do things for you. This is your life, you are the ones who are behind the wheels, the driver of a BMW car, you have to chose which road you want to take. BMW is like your life, when it is damege you send it for repair, when it is dirty you clean it, when it is on the road you drive carefully. That is just like how your life is, how you want to take care of it and not the other person.

People around you wont help you much, all that they could do is just sit at their sits, be entertain as they watch the show going on, and gives what ever comments that are produce up in their brain. But such comments are both good and bad, wheather you chose to listen or not is totally up to you.

Take some time and listen to the sound of your most inner self, listen to what they are trying so hard to shout at you, listen to why they are trying so hard to catch your attentions...WHY??
Because they are the voice of GOD.

My Designs

First year in LUCT

Relationship?

What the hell is wrong with this world this year? All of the relationship are crashing down like coffin falling down from the sky. What is the point of continue seeing each other when you know that there is no more chance that the relationship could get stronger...What is the point of having him to be honest with you when his not yours anymore...No matter how many times you went to see him, you just wish that he could hug you tightly again, to let you feel that everything is just going to be alright and nothing will come to harm you... But the fact is that, its not going to happen. A broken relationship is and will always remain broken, it will not heal no matter what. So at this point, shouldn't you just let him go, let him do what ever it is that he wants to do, let him go on with his life and you with yours?

FRIENDS

Spend in PD for a night out

Although this semester was really busy with assignments and exams and all, but we all had our part of fun together. No matter if its with our friends, or classmates or lecturer or even those that are new to us, we still had an unforgettable fun down at the beach of Port Dickson. Though some of our classmates couldn't make it for this event, I hope they make an appearance at the next outing event with all of us. It would be a momantious event. REALLY !!!

Coolest people of FCMBs

This are all my classmates for Ms. Farah class (Communication Writing Skills). They...I mean we, all the most craziest but fun to be with people from around the world that were gather on one stop in KL. We even went to Parvilion to watch the Angles and Demons movie. I really truly love that movie. The movie itself kindda show that you could not judge a person base on how he looks nor what he does, becuase, no matter is that person does good things, he would still have a motive behind his doing...so...yea

Important people

As time fly passes by, as we all starts to grow older and older by the minute, things will keep on changing. No matter where you are, no matter where you go, no matter what you do, you are never alone. No matter how lonely you think you are, but there are always someone around the corner to be your friend.
Although we all keep on making friends without stopping, we should never forget about the friends that we currently have beside us. You can make as much friends as you want, but do not ignore the friends that you already have, or you will have no one that you could trust in.

Crazy Friends This Semester

This semester was really fun and enjoyable compare to the previous two semester in Limkokwing Creative University. Many a-nights, i have been staying at one of my friend's place. Me, Mr. H, and Ms. L, the three of us has been crazy for the past 3 weeks since we started to stay at Mr. H house to do assignments. The little room fill with full of laughter, really makes us supper close to one another. Even one of our lecture, Mr. F was really friedly with the three of us. out side of the university, he is our best friend, but in class, his our most friendly lecturer ever, the best!!
I hope this happiness and friendship would continue forever and ever...

Relationship in a CRISIS

Time has change, many things have advances to our own benefits. The advantage of computers, ipod, iphone, slim tv set and many more were created by us humans. It makes us able to have control on our environment, to use the availlable sources to create things that are of use to us.

But out of all the things we could do, there is something that we cant control. Which is a healthy relationship.

From the begining of this year, many relationship have ended up in a separate way. Leaving each other to go their own desirable ways of their life. Maybe its a good thing about separations, you could learn to be strong, to stand up after each fall you receive, to be able to move on quickly. Broken relationship isnt so bad after all ex could still be your best friend in life even if they might belong to someone else.

As for me, I'm now am being a single. Even though i love him, i still cant be with him no matter how much i want to be with him. Knowing that he is engage to another lady, i still take care of him as much as i can do for him. But some advice me to move on and not hang onto him with a thin piece of thread.

Well, my advice is, even if your relationship is broken up, just see it as a lesson so that you could know what to expect and how to care more fore spouse.

I hope that you guys out that have a happy healthy relationship forever.

Life Journey

For years that i have live my life, this life, I have lived it boldly, arrogantly and full of stubborness. But not soo long ago that i have open my eyes to something new, something that i daringly called it life.

Seeing this whole new life with my eyes wide opened did I only notice that this is my life. A life in which I may only be granted to live only once. A life where I will not only live once, but as well as die once, fall in love once and hopefully married once. Yes, a marriage should only be just once, so that makes us to choose our decision on who we want to spend the rest of our life with more carefully.

A life that can only live once must have a journey, for there is no life without a journey and no journey without life. For every moment of my life that i have left, no doubt there will be obsticles, but life must go on. And even if I were to head on with life, I would never give in to the chances of losing any wanderful moments that i had made with my family, friends, teachers as well as strangers who had lighted up my days just as they were passing by.

For this is a journey of life, and there shall always be different road to journey on the lives.