The time children spend with their parents

This title was actually my original title for one of my assignment in Research Methodology. It is a research that concerns the children in this time of era where technology could be available at anywhere and at anytime.

It is actually a good idea for a research to be done, seeing how we kids this days could never live without touching a single technology. It is either with handphone, or a laptop, even a game boy would do. It is still Technology!

Epic Movie

I am watching a satire movie called Epic Movie. It is interesting how they used scenes from other movies, like the narnia chronicle, harry potter, pirates of caribbean, and also charle and the chocolate factory. it is just a wonder how they had just mix it up together to become one hell of a comedy movie about these other movies.

The Ferret's Property Law

To all Ferret lovers out there, this is the ferret's property law

Written by The Fat Ferret


1. If I like it, it's mine.


2. If it's in my mouth, it's mine.


3. If I had it a little while ago, it's mine.


4. If I can take it from you, it's mine.


5. If it looks like mine, it's mine.


6. If it's mine, it must never be yours.


7. If I saw it first, it's mine.


8. If you have something and put it down, it's mine.


9. If I chew something up, all of the pieces are mine.


10. If it used to be yours, get over it. 


11. If it's broken, it's yours.


12. If it's edible it's always mine.

Fragile life

Just think, where is our life? Who hold us when we are but a little small insects?
Who does our life belongs to? To our parents that carry us till we are on our own? Or is it to the creator that so love to take away of what it is created? ( If it even exist).
Our life is nothing more than a fragile little thing that comes and goes as it like, and there is nothing that we could do to stop it, except make the best out of it.

These pictures are the drive of my life, they are my little hamsters.

Me

Whats wrong to be happy?

I who have almost everything that i needed.
A father and a mother who love me as their child.
A boyfriend who only want to see a smile on my face
And not a flicker of tears from my eyes.

What could I possibly ask more?
What in this world could make me happy that i dont already have?

Who cares what they think
Who cares what they say

For I am myself
I know what happened
I know truth
I am truth

A Time for Everything

To everything there is a season, and a time to every purpose under heaven;

A time to be born, and a time to die;
A time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;
A time to kill, and time to heal;
A time to break down, and a time to build up;

A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
A time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;

A time to get, and a time to lose;
A time to keep, and a time to cast away;
A time to rend, and a time to sew;
A time to keep silence, and a time to speak;

A time to love, and a time to hate;
A time of war, and a time of peace;


From Ecclesiastes, The Holy Bible: King James Version. 2000.

One World

All we need is a little hope;
For the world to be alright.
All we need is a little faith;
For the goodness in their heart.
All we need is a better someone;
For us to place our trust.
All we need is a greater friend;
Who would push us off our chair.

This is our world;
Our only ever world.
No home could ever be more pleasant than this.
This is the place we have in comment;
The air that we breath in;
The soil that we rot in.

Just keep our hopes up;
Chins as high as it can go;
Shoulders back;
Chest of courage and bravery out;
And walk on straight.

For this is our land

This is HOME!

Unrequited Love

Last week we meet,
I didn't know his name.
This week we're friends,
how fast was that?

Caught Between Two Worlds

When I was a child;
When reality seems to be a world of rules;
When dreams and imagination seems to be the only solution;
When Santa Claus and miracles seems to be real.

When I am an adult;
When work seems to be the only thing in mind;
When all rules have to be applied;
When I am stuck in reality, all I could hope for is a miracle.

Caught between two worlds;
Between reality and imagination;
Between what is real and what is fake;
If only miracles do happen in reality....

We all would still be alive....

A New One

Throughout my entire life, i only know one thing, and that is to write what i see in my fairy tale land. Although i had so many ideas for all different kinds of story, i never seem to be able to finish all of them.

More Appetite?

I have no idea what in the world is going on with my stomach. Since a week now that i have been feeling the likes to eat. Why? To think that hormones unbalance is actually not that good at all...
What shall i eat now for dinner? I had chicken rice for lunch and mee just now at about 5pm something... 6 hours passed and im hungry again. To tell you the truth, im hungry for more fish. I could hardly even remember when was the last time that i had fish entering my mouth...
anyway, time to check out the fridge, see ya all soon.
Good luck to sweet and sour life!

It has been long...

When was the last time that I played Ragnarok Online? I really could not remember, nor count the days, the years that had already pass since I first created my very first character, the assassin.
Now that I just got the original soundtrack of the game, and listening to them, it makes me want to play it again, with all the characters.
But too bad for me that I have university filling up my time with assignments, and besides, i dont even have the files to play Ragnarok.
Wonder if my dear cousin still have hers or not...
Anyway, im going to enjoy listening to the soundtrack and back to my assignments...
Good luck people!

1 Malaysia ?

What does 1 Malaysia means?

Some people say that it is all about Malaysians being together as one. Some say that it is all about the different races living together in one country and working together to get work done.

Is the definition and the idea about 1 Malaysia just being that simple? Or is there maybe other motif to name it 1 Malaysia so that no one would doubt the very existence of it?

Malaysia is a peaceful country. No doubt that there is no war in this country or amongst the neighbouring country, but it can never succeed to the point of being a successful country.

Malaysian its self are very selfish about themselves. But they will never learn. To be more than number one in their class. They will never be more than creative.

Why?

Cause they never fight the idea of settling down. They never ask themselves the question of "What If?" They will never be someone, other than just another piece of soul that eats and sleep and talk bad all day about the people that could do better than them.

Life is sometimes predictable...

Have you ever gone true a moment where, sometimes things just happen the way you predicted it to happen? Without even lifting up one of your own finger?
     Well it does sort of happen to me. In fact I sort of knew things would happen the way they did a long time ago. Just dont know why it didn't occur to me to tell anyone... I heard a rumor, that if you were to tell someone about a bad prediction or even a bad dream that you just had last night, the possibility of it happening to you in the future lessen. Sometimes I wonder if that really do helps... especially for bad situations like mine.
     I guess, people always take this for granted. Even if they don't really mean to take it for granted, just that they have not open their eyes more and see the reality, the possibility of things that could happen in a life.
     Most of the time in my life, all i do is just put a blame on myself for the things that happening around me. Why didn't i prevented them from happening when i got the chance? Or maybe it have some benefit that will MAYBE unfold in the future...who knows...Weird things happen for many weird reasons....

Anyway, I am signing off for now...be back later for an update of what happen for today's class...
Ta Ta

New Egg Recipe

Ingredients:
Egg (s), Sausage (s), Tumeric powder, Garlic power, Pepper powder

Firstly you might want to heat up the pan and the oil. Cut the Sausage into smaller size as you please. Cook the egg into scramble egg. after the egg is properly cook, put in the sausages. Do not put in all together cause the sausage takes less time to cook when it is smaller size. Then put in the tumeric, garlic and bit of paper.
And Tada....serve it, you can even eat it with bread. And if you do not like to put in tumeric or garlic, you can even try putting mayonnaise.
Enjoy!

Just Blaming My Self...

     Life sucks, college sucks, food sucks... Everything that happen in my life, that happen to people that i know, i always blame myself. Last time, mom often gets into car accident. And even though it was only just a minor accident I still blame myself, like a silly donkey. I dont know what else that I can do to help. Bad things just keep happening.
    These days, day things keep happening to my family. Again, I dont know what to do. Just sit down and see the things unfolding in front of me. Now my own father is not talking to us anymore, and most of the time I feel like it was because of me. The thing about how he always say that I used most of his money just hurt me soo bad. Sometimes I just feel like stop going to college and just work. Maybe just finish my novels and my script and sell them to anyone who wants to buy them.
    Even the college sucks. Sometimes we even have to pay for subjects that we dont really need, that is not necessary for the course that i took.
     I just dont know what to do. Next week my boyfriend's mother and his brother will be coming here to Cyberia. Which reminds me, I need to clean the house...    

I hate myself

I hate myself, and i know others hate me too...i dont know why i would care to give a damn care about things... about other people... why should i care, its their life, not mind... what they want to do or what they dont want to do is entirely up to them. i know its my habit to care about other people, wether they do their assignment or have they eaten or not...i do care even if they are not my family...but sometimes it hurts when they say that im being to mother-like or tell me to shut up...i hate it... sometimes i wish i could change and not be this idiotic person... really...i hate myself for caring too much...

Things have change...

     Things have change dramastically. Ever since back from Bali last year, now i have a wonderful boyfriend who likes to bully me, have more iranian friends, slowly opening up my self to father. At least try to let him understand me a little bit. I dont really care about what he thinks about me bf, i have done my part to introduce. But not my problem if he didnt want to know more about the people i hang out with. Sometimes i do wish that father be more of a normal father, that wants to engage in our daily life. I dont want to complain...But the way he is....just come back and sit down, watch tv and sometimes dozed off... never want to bond with us...Sometimes when i want to tell him something...like that part about me having a boyfriend...i also dont know how to tell him... no idea what word to start off with. And what would he do if he dont like the idea of me having a bf that is not even malaysian? He doesnt know me at all. I know that he would want me to be married off to a chinese dude, but that is not what i want. Chinese dude aint that good at all.
     Sunday was my birthday, only my bf gave me presents. I know that none would remember my birthday... Well... what to do. Even my cousins...only Kili called me and wished me, and Melcom smash really cold cream onto my face....i have to bath three or four times just to feel secure that i am clean enough to go out there...haiz...

What do I think about editing?

If one ask me about editing, all i can say is that it is fun if i just edit for no reason...maybe for my own fun, maybe because i got an idea for something, or maybe im just looking for an experience. But if one ask me to edit as a career, i would say "No Way Dude!".... i mean really....editing as a career?? really boring for me... i mean...look at it...an editor gets to just sit down 24/7...but i need more action in life than just sitting down... i prefer to go out and do stuff... see things...touch and smell...
Some people say that i am good in editing...and they think that i will be a future editor...no way man.... i prefer more to sticking to me own ideas. i prefer to be a director and a script writer...produce my own script... that is how my future would be like....
I dont mind editing for my group assignments...but really...if others dont edit... it really does not benefit them...but...up to them...

Unconsiderate housemates

Do you think that, as a housemate that you should be considerate about the right timing to be as noisy idiots? Yea you should! I mean come on... which in heaven grace does people come back in the early morning where the sun haven't even touch the horizon and you bringing your bunch of monkeys and made so much loud noise? Im not saying that they are monkeys...but they are being and inconsiderate ass holes... sorry for my rude language coz its bloody 4.45am now....

Some people need to sleep here!!

In A Relationship...

   You ever wonder why people believe that there is no the perfect person? I have always wonder why people had to think like that...Did they really had a bad ending to their relationship that they dont trust that there is a perfect person? 

   I live in a world of fairy tales, fantasy...imagination...not like those girls that normally think about how their prince charming would look like. But I have always imagine being in another world, soo beautiful that maybe, just maybe I could just share it with someone. Someone who share the same interest as me, someone who could imagine with me, someone who could be with me in the imaginary world.

   Time has passed by. I know its still kindda early to be in a new relationship after just breaking up with my previous one. But somehow I feel that...he is the one. But like all girls, I am scare... scare that it will end badly. Everyone says to me that he is the one, that he is the only one that I was meant to be. That I could not be more happier with someone else other than him. Now that we are officially girl-boy friend, I am the most happiest girl on earth. He is my perfect man. He is my other half. He is the one that i rather be with.

   But I am scare. I am scare of being played. I am scare of what might happen in the future.

Just Speak Up!!

Im tired of people with their attitute towards me. I mean, what did I do wrong to them? Have i ever tell their secrets to other people? Have i said anything to other people that is not true so that they think bad about them? No! I did not do all those damn childish things. Yet this people, this so called friends of mind, who already expose my secrets to other people, keep giving me those stares like as if i stole their money or something... Not once did i do anything to them. I didnt even steal their friends from them, yet they keep taking the only people i have to their side. If you have something to say, why dont you just freaking come to me and say it in my darn face, if you dare...oh how i dared you to do that. Dont just look at me like that, like a wusspuss staring at me with those idiotic childish eyes and expect me to talk to you. You are no one to me, i care less to what happen to you since you yourself dont even bother to listen advice from people around you! SO BE GONE you EVIL SPIRITS!!

Animals seems to be more better compare to us human!

In class this morning, our lecturer screen us this one documentary called the "March of the penguins" Mostly its about the beautiful side of life. This penguins, though they are not able to think the way we could, but they understand the meaning of life, the importance of life. They prefer to stave for more than 2 months while they wait for their mate to feist, they take care of their little egg who depends solely that their parents dont give up. Rather than them giving up taking care of the unhatch egg and hunt for food... This documentary really open my eyes today, that these wild animals, without training nor teaching could have more human values than us humans...
Why cant we just be like them?

I Did It!

     This time, everything well be different for me. My friends will be someone that i can trust, that are mature enough for me to exchange experiance and knowledge. Someone that sees me and not pretend that i am an invisible being. 

     I use to think that i can never be cold to another being, or hurt them when they have never do me wrong, or hurt me. But for once, i did it! To be able to achieve something, i have to let something else go, and that was what i had done. I finally officially broke of that girl/boy friend relationship. Now i am ofiacially single. Which, i dont know if i can say i am enjoying it or regreting it... but all the same, its the right thing to do.

    This year, like i said, that everything will be new or different. Now i have a bigger motive in life, a bigger dream. I wanna be creative and put my ideas, my words into something visual that the world would see and think about it. To share knowledge through media, creative media. To share perspective. But by doing that, i would first have to work in Malaysia, if can, i wanna be like Hans Isaac, taking my own work to overseas. To be well known around the world. It is not about money that i am aiming for. But the acceptence that i am who i am. A creative person.

My Love Story

To my dear bloggers out there

I find that love, is a charming thing, it is a nice thing to be able to share with some. Be it if its the love one, life partners, friends or family. Love is just beyond understanding.

I find myself easily to love someone. But to really love someone, means understanding, responsibility. Sometimes when a person love another, he or she might, could, would do unexplainable things. Sometimes could even sacrifice love by saying that he or she dont love the other in order for that person to have a happy life.

Love is there, but you dont really need to say it. Actions is everything. Actions speaks louder than words.

I have a feeling for a person, a guy i know. But i choose not to let him know, because it is the best thing, and his happy now with his kind of life. But at times, i keep remembering him when i dont want to...i just cant forget him...not to mention i have to see him in the same class with me for another 2 years....its killing...but i cant do anything but to learn to mask my emotions, my feelings.

Understanding Myself

     Sometimes i wondered what would things be like if i was never born. Just be a spirit that roams on the earth, passing through walking beings called human, without them noticing that i was there. Its not that i dont appreciate my parents bringing me onto this world, but sometimes its just a thought in my head, saying, "what if".

     Life is hard indeed. No one goes around and say "all you need to do is just eat and sleep". I know what life is. Some people say that life is when you are living on earth. That is correct, part of it, but there is more to life than any words can express.

          Everyone is afraid. Before we are born, we were afraid that we will fail in living.  When we begin to live, we start to think of how we would die. In our head we imagine what if we die like this, at this time, at this place. We start to think, that life is short and that we only have one chance in living. So, we start to do everything that we want to do. Because after we pass on, it will just be that...that we had once walk on the earth amongst the animals and mother nature.

             Sometimes i ask myself, why was i born? Did i came here to get something done? Funny thing is that when i was a kid, i really hated wars and battles, i hated seeing people fighting and argueing. At that time, i had really thought, that i came here to stop the wars. To make them see, to put some sense in people's head... but now i think again...who am i? who will ever listen to a little girl like me, who loves animals, who love the smell of the clean fresh air coming from the forest. A little girl who loves to play under the rain that was once pure rain before the air become polluted with toxin.

              Every day, there are wars. People against people, animal against their same species or for food, doctors fight to save lifes, soldiers fight to save their country, people fight for what they believe in. There really isnt any stopping...in wars... and this is life, you like it or not, you are here, given a chance to do what is right, what is best for you and the people you love.